Death and surgerys and all things rosie
Mar. 15th, 2005 03:04 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jaspamasterWent to friends mothers viewing this Sunday, the funeral being Monday I couldn’t go to.
Dislike sad happening like this and wish him all the luck in the world, was a good evening tho with many good things being said and many good emotions being expresed about the deceased.
Reading Lj post of a now distant person about to have surgery and pondering time and most of the angst of the last few years. Its interesting how people who get into there own growth loose sight of those around them and that other people grow as well.
I like watching patterns in people interactions, whose deferring to whom the loaded bomb of our interactions and interplays.
Sometimes being in a room full of people can be a painful experience as I watch and predict the ebb and flow of the room; watching people I know hit their marks like an overly rehearsed theater piece.
Someone once told me I would make a great hermit and I agree, to be lost in the wilderness speaking to people only once a year if at all always wanted to be “Jeremiah Johnson”, big beard and buckskins.
What’s funny is that while having an eye for large social patterns and direct personal ebbs and flows I am clueless to certain elements and approaches (Fuck all if i can tell if someone is trying to pick me up).
Watching the people at the funeral whom I know was entertaining watching the politics of people as some people ignored other people or simply clutched with others. On Lj ive been watching people socially grease certain wheels and play the praise game.
I have been accused of not paying attention but that only hides that I am always watching everything.
It just is not something I can stop doing.
Someone last year accused me of being too political because I had a salient comment to make about some people around me at the time.
Where is the Galactus so I can just have it all wiped away and make the watcher go home ;-)
My “film theory and Praxis teacher”, Bucatman said I had curious mental filters, I don’t think it was a compliment in his case.
He did like my takes on Kurasowa and Japanese film in general.
Dislike sad happening like this and wish him all the luck in the world, was a good evening tho with many good things being said and many good emotions being expresed about the deceased.
Reading Lj post of a now distant person about to have surgery and pondering time and most of the angst of the last few years. Its interesting how people who get into there own growth loose sight of those around them and that other people grow as well.
I like watching patterns in people interactions, whose deferring to whom the loaded bomb of our interactions and interplays.
Sometimes being in a room full of people can be a painful experience as I watch and predict the ebb and flow of the room; watching people I know hit their marks like an overly rehearsed theater piece.
Someone once told me I would make a great hermit and I agree, to be lost in the wilderness speaking to people only once a year if at all always wanted to be “Jeremiah Johnson”, big beard and buckskins.
What’s funny is that while having an eye for large social patterns and direct personal ebbs and flows I am clueless to certain elements and approaches (Fuck all if i can tell if someone is trying to pick me up).
Watching the people at the funeral whom I know was entertaining watching the politics of people as some people ignored other people or simply clutched with others. On Lj ive been watching people socially grease certain wheels and play the praise game.
I have been accused of not paying attention but that only hides that I am always watching everything.
It just is not something I can stop doing.
Someone last year accused me of being too political because I had a salient comment to make about some people around me at the time.
Where is the Galactus so I can just have it all wiped away and make the watcher go home ;-)
My “film theory and Praxis teacher”, Bucatman said I had curious mental filters, I don’t think it was a compliment in his case.
He did like my takes on Kurasowa and Japanese film in general.
